I have severe anxiety. Yesterday I had an almost-breakdown about how stressful my life will be in college. I have a packed schedule with very hard classes. I am also very worried about my weight and exercising etc. I really just want to be happy, especially my first year. I hate that I have to worry about so many little things. I’m hoping to get down to 120 by august 12th. I’ve been doing the 30 day shred for the past 8 days. I see a difference but not HUGE. Right now I’m probably 126. I know I’m not fat since I’m 5’5 but I just want to be very skinny so all clothes look good on me. I have issues, I know.
I must learn to love the fool in me. The one who feels too much, talks too much, takes too many chances, wins sometimes and loses often, lacks self-control, loves and hates, hurts and gets hurt, promises and breaks promises, laughs and cries.(via theselittlewondersstillremain)
I believe that theres is one story in the world, and only one… Humans are caught - in their lives, in their thoughts, in their hungers and ambitions, in their avarice and cruelty, and in their kindness and generosity too - in a net of good and evil… there is no other story.John Steinbeck, East of Eden